#everytime i think of aromantic character who desperately want a romantic connection i get dizzy

[somuchbetterthanthat]

Actually I'm obssessed with that idea that people were saying in the tag, that Rue was in love with being in love most of all, this is breaking my brain and turning over and over and over in my head and I sort of want a story where, a few years into their marriage, Rue realizes that they've sort of fallen into the same dynamics they used to have with Wuvvy, and they love Knicholas, they truly do, but they love him like they loved Wuvvy, and it SENDS THEM SPIRALLING-

Were they in love with Wuvvy? No! They loved Wuvvy, deeply, understood and appreciated her devotion enough to stood by her when Wuvvy challenged Hob, enough to understand the GRAVITY of commanding her to the point of crying over it, but they weren't in love with her, and so whenever Wuvvy said "You know I love you" they couldn't say it back, not until it was clear they were now on the same page, on the same equal foot, on the same understanding that when Rue told her "I love you" It didn't mean "I'm in love with you".

But they've been saying to Hob so easily, so passionately, so immediately that they loved him, because Hob felt different and new and like them, because he was the answer to something they'd yearned for for a millenia; and they have such deep fondness for so much of him, and I do thing they get along very well when it comes to passion, so to speak, and so for a bit Rue gets MUCH MORE PASSIONATE, which Hob is confused but pleased to go along with, for sure, wide eyed and devoted fully to them, just like Wuvvy used to be, and Rue is like something is not right-

And I think it gets even clearer whenever they go see BINX and Andhera. Because BINX and Andhera are in love, in genuine, simple, mundane love, the "passion" (yes this is all an euphemism.) barely there, if at all (a fact that at some point the Cousins have learnt, i'm sure, which led to One Hell of a Dramatic Scene, i'm SURE, until BINX got serious and Andhera all princely and the Cousins were like "let's chill, you're right, we were all built different" etc.) (at the same the scene had gave Rue an odd chill, a bit of a dry mouth, but they'd leant closer to Hob and said nothing, forgetting to even mediate gracefully).

Anyway, Rue panics, runs away, creates yet another scandal, leaves a bemused and heartbroken Hob behind who definitely believes for a while they were kidnapped or something, goes on a journey of Yet Another Self-Discovery, and it starts with people of the Court of Wonder, then to the Cousins (who are like, "rue, dear rue, of course passion is not love, do you know how exhausting our lives would have been, if passion was love?), then to BINX and Andhera (who, by this point, are very angry at her but are still going to help, of course, even though rue hurt Hob, because they're their friend too, and they love them, and Andhera and them discuss how he lacks passion and how they fear, they're terrified, that all along they lacked /love/ and he is like "but do you? The same way I do not feel passion but can still appreciate and deeply need touch, even if you do not feel romantic love, do you not feel deeply? Do you not need intimacy, is that not what you've built with Hob?" and then "Also please talk to your husband, Rue, that's what Marriage IS, we talk to each other when something is wrong!!!")

So Rue goes to Hob, and tells Hob they needsto figure something out, that they're so sorry but can he please, please be patient for them, just a moment more, and when they'll come back they'll talk, and Hob is like "What did I do wrong?" and Rue is all heartbroken eyes going "I fear maybe It's me who has kept being wrong, again and again- there is someone I need to see, but then, then, let's go home and talk." and Hob kisses their hand and Rue waits for the spark they assume SHOULD be here, but it's not, and they sob as they hug him goodbye and kiss his cheek in a half embrace.

And then, of course, they go to see Wuvvy, their oldest most faithful friend, a wound that was never quite close, and they talk and talk and talk and talk.

And I don't know how it goes afterwards, but let's just said that aromantic!Rue who craved romantic love since they were young is making me dizzy. I would like to believe they and Hob make it work though. For Reasons.